I'm Losing Weight But I Still Don't Love My Body (Here's What I'm Doing About It)

No, I don't love my body yet, but I'm working

on it. So today is Valentine's Day. By the time

you guys hear this, Valentine's Day will have

passed. But I just I wanted to take a moment

and kind of share some raw and real feelings

that I'm having right now because it is Valentine's

Day. It's a day of love. And I'm thinking a lot

about self -love and loving your body. And one

of the questions that I have received a few times

is, you know, how are you feeling now that you're

starting to lose weight? And how are you feeling

now that you're you're. Pants are fitting better

and you're having to get smaller pant sizes,

like, you know, all that jazz. And the reality

is, no, I'm not in love with my body just yet.

I I still I mentioned this in a previous episode

whenever I had dropped. I think it was two or

three pant sizes. I still look in the mirror

and I still see that formerly fat girl. I really

do. And so I'm working on the self -love aspect,

but I'm not there yet. I'm you know, it's a I'm

a work in progress. Right. I'm human and I'm

I'm. I'm just trying to figure out how I'm feeling

about the changes I'm seeing in the mirror. I'm

trying to accept what is what I'm looking at.

And so, no, I'm not I'm not feeling that body

love that I want to feel. But I am loving the

fact that I'm feeling stronger than I ever have.

I'm loving the fact that I'm feeling more flexible

than I ever have. Every time that I, you know,

complete a rep that feels difficult or feel,

you know, do a move that feels hard. Or, you

know, get through a really strenuous workout.

Those are the times that I love my body the most

because I get so excited that my body was able

to handle it. And so I feel like the more that

I keep showing up and the more that I keep getting

stronger, the more that I'll start having that

self -love. And I know that, you know, I didn't

treat my body very well for a lot of years. And

I wasn't mindful of the things I was consuming.

I wasn't mindful of the... the moves I was making.

And now that I am, I am starting to treat myself

with a little bit more grace. I am starting to

treat myself a little bit better and it is helping

in the confidence aspect of things. I've noticed

that like things that used to really, really

bother me, don't bother me as much. And yet at

the same time, the funny thing is the more that

I am kind of opening up my mind. Cause I, you

know, I, I will admit I had, I had a lot of trauma.

and some issues mentally and emotionally. And

I've been working through those. And it's interesting

how now that I'm handling the physical aspects

of my life, I'm starting to finally examine the

mental and emotional aspects of my life that

I had repressed and hid away for so long. And

I feel like that wouldn't have happened if I

hadn't started working on my fitness. And I think

that's because... When we have so many things

going on in our bodies and our minds, we can

only focus on so many things at a time. And so

whenever I'm at the gym and I'm working out,

it's like that's the one time where everything

just gets so clear and my brain just seems to

like open up. And so, yeah, it's bringing some

stuff up to the surface emotionally and mentally.

But I'm actually grateful for it, even though

in some cases, you know, it'll it'll hurt really

badly mentally and emotionally. I feel like.

because of the fact I'm finally facing things

with fitness, I'm able to face things mentally

and emotionally. I don't know if that'll make

sense. Maybe someone can explain that psychology

-wise to me, you know, hit me up with a voice

note, you know, famousashleygrant .com backslash

fitness. Feel free to send me a voice note if

you can help me understand why it is that now

that I'm taking care of the fitness, I'm also

able to finally take care of the mental and emotional

things. But yeah, getting back to the whole self

-love thing, I'm working on treating Ashley better.

I'm working more on falling in love with who

I am as a person. And I do feel more confident

than I ever have in my life before. And I do

feel stronger than I ever have. And I'm just

going to keep going and keep working towards,

you know, my goals. Every time I accomplish one

of my fitness goals or, you know, I'm working

towards something or, you know, I'm able to get

through a really tough workout or whatever it

is. Those things are making me feel better about

myself and they are giving me more confidence.

And so I think that as time goes on, the self

-love will start to be more of a thing. So honestly,

the best gift you can give yourself is to start

working on your health. And so if you take nothing

else from this episode, please take this, that

you deserve to have a life of movement. You deserve

to have a life of mobility. And so if you aren't

working out, if you aren't moving your body.

please start. It's the best gift you can give

yourself. You are the most important project