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No, I don't love my body yet, but I'm working
on it. So today is Valentine's Day. By the time
you guys hear this, Valentine's Day will have
passed. But I just I wanted to take a moment
and kind of share some raw and real feelings
that I'm having right now because it is Valentine's
Day. It's a day of love. And I'm thinking a lot
about self -love and loving your body. And one
of the questions that I have received a few times
is, you know, how are you feeling now that you're
starting to lose weight? And how are you feeling
now that you're you're. Pants are fitting better
and you're having to get smaller pant sizes,
like, you know, all that jazz. And the reality
is, no, I'm not in love with my body just yet.
I I still I mentioned this in a previous episode
whenever I had dropped. I think it was two or
three pant sizes. I still look in the mirror
and I still see that formerly fat girl. I really
do. And so I'm working on the self -love aspect,
but I'm not there yet. I'm you know, it's a I'm
a work in progress. Right. I'm human and I'm
I'm. I'm just trying to figure out how I'm feeling
about the changes I'm seeing in the mirror. I'm
trying to accept what is what I'm looking at.
And so, no, I'm not I'm not feeling that body
love that I want to feel. But I am loving the
fact that I'm feeling stronger than I ever have.
I'm loving the fact that I'm feeling more flexible
than I ever have. Every time that I, you know,
complete a rep that feels difficult or feel,
you know, do a move that feels hard. Or, you
know, get through a really strenuous workout.
Those are the times that I love my body the most
because I get so excited that my body was able
to handle it. And so I feel like the more that
I keep showing up and the more that I keep getting
stronger, the more that I'll start having that
self -love. And I know that, you know, I didn't
treat my body very well for a lot of years. And
I wasn't mindful of the things I was consuming.
I wasn't mindful of the... the moves I was making.
And now that I am, I am starting to treat myself
with a little bit more grace. I am starting to
treat myself a little bit better and it is helping
in the confidence aspect of things. I've noticed
that like things that used to really, really
bother me, don't bother me as much. And yet at
the same time, the funny thing is the more that
I am kind of opening up my mind. Cause I, you
know, I, I will admit I had, I had a lot of trauma.
and some issues mentally and emotionally. And
I've been working through those. And it's interesting
how now that I'm handling the physical aspects
of my life, I'm starting to finally examine the
mental and emotional aspects of my life that
I had repressed and hid away for so long. And
I feel like that wouldn't have happened if I
hadn't started working on my fitness. And I think
that's because... When we have so many things
going on in our bodies and our minds, we can
only focus on so many things at a time. And so
whenever I'm at the gym and I'm working out,
it's like that's the one time where everything
just gets so clear and my brain just seems to
like open up. And so, yeah, it's bringing some
stuff up to the surface emotionally and mentally.
But I'm actually grateful for it, even though
in some cases, you know, it'll it'll hurt really
badly mentally and emotionally. I feel like.
because of the fact I'm finally facing things
with fitness, I'm able to face things mentally
and emotionally. I don't know if that'll make
sense. Maybe someone can explain that psychology
-wise to me, you know, hit me up with a voice
note, you know, famousashleygrant .com backslash
fitness. Feel free to send me a voice note if
you can help me understand why it is that now
that I'm taking care of the fitness, I'm also
able to finally take care of the mental and emotional
things. But yeah, getting back to the whole self
-love thing, I'm working on treating Ashley better.
I'm working more on falling in love with who
I am as a person. And I do feel more confident
than I ever have in my life before. And I do
feel stronger than I ever have. And I'm just
going to keep going and keep working towards,
you know, my goals. Every time I accomplish one
of my fitness goals or, you know, I'm working
towards something or, you know, I'm able to get
through a really tough workout or whatever it
is. Those things are making me feel better about
myself and they are giving me more confidence.
And so I think that as time goes on, the self
-love will start to be more of a thing. So honestly,
the best gift you can give yourself is to start
working on your health. And so if you take nothing
else from this episode, please take this, that
you deserve to have a life of movement. You deserve
to have a life of mobility. And so if you aren't
working out, if you aren't moving your body.
please start. It's the best gift you can give
yourself. You are the most important project
that you can work on. And I intend to continue
working on my own body and my own project, my
own mind, my spiritual, mental, physical, all
the things. So yeah, that's what I've got for
you guys today. I know it's no longer Valentine's
Day, but happy Valentine's Day because like I
said, I'm recording this on Valentine's Day.
I love you for listening and I thank you so much
for listening. And I would love to hear from
y 'all if you want to share a voice note with
me. go to famousashleygrant .com backslash fitness.
I'd love to hear from y 'all. I'm loving the
voice notes that have been coming in. I'm loving
questions that have been coming in and I'm trying
to answer them and include as many of them as
I can. So if I haven't gotten to you yet, I am
still going through them, but I'm really appreciative
of every single one of you and onwards and upwards,
my friends. Have you worked out today?